Victorious Heart Inc. ca

Ritual Abuse Survivor and Author of: "UNLOCKING BURIED SECRETS" & "UNLOCKING BURIED SECRETS #2: Healing From Satanic Ritual Abuse Workbook for Male & Female Survivors"


 ~Raising Public Awareness on Ritual & Sexual Abuse~



Please help me raise public awareness on ritual and sexual abuse. If you know a survivor directly who may benifit from my site,  if you are invloved in social networking,  have your own blog or website please create a link to my page. Thanks!


'The Sexual Assault Support Center Of Waterloo Region' is always in need of donations.  This is a wonderful center filled with caring professional staff & volunteers that advocate for, council and provide resources for women in Kitchener/ Waterloo region and surrounding areas. I have benefited greatly from this center and I feel it is a wonderful resource for women healing from any form of abuse or trauma. If you feel you would like to make a donation, you can do so by clicking on this link:

 Disaster Relief: Haiti
Ways that you can help those in Haiti:

1-877-51- Haiti   *Call to find out ways that you can help those suffering in Haiti.

*If everyone donated just $1 there would be over $300 million raised in Canada alone, and with the government matching every donation just think of the possibilities.

But more importantly the most help is needed at the airport and in other areas on the ground in Haiti. They have all of the supplies pouring in from around the world but no one to take charge and get the supplies out to those that are in desperate need.  The supplies are not being distributed to those in need in Haiti and in surrounding areas devastated by the earthquake.Thus security has increased to the point that it has become a problem .

If there is more help on the ground in Haiti the need for security would be decreased and the supplies would be distributed.  If you are a person interested in missionary work through your church or organization please call the number above and find out how you can go down and assist.

Definition of Ritual Abuse:

The 1989 Ritual Abuse Task Force of Los Angeles County Commission for Women has defined ritual abuse as follows: ‘Ritual abuse usually involves repeated abuse over an extended period of time.  The physical abuse is severe, sometimes including torture and killing.  The sexual abuse is usually painful, sadistic, and humiliating, intended as a means of gaining dominance over the victim.  The psychological abuse is devastating and involves the use of ritual indoctrination.  It includes mind control techniques which convey to the victim a profound sense of terror of the cult members and of the evil spirits they believe cult members can command.  Both during and after the abuse, most victims are in a state of terror, mind control and dissociation.’ Taken from ‘Safe Passage to Healing’ a guide for survivors of ritual abuse by: Chrystine Oksana




‘There are many similarities between victims of ritual abuse and prisoners of war (POWs) subjected to rigorous thought reform. As with some of these prisoners, ritual abuse survivors are primarily indoctrinated through the three T’s: torture, terror, and threats. The difference is that these victims are not trained soldiers but usually young children. The war zone is not a foreign country but the child’s home, school, or other ‘safe’ environment. The tormentors are not a recognized ‘enemy’. They are the child’s primary caregivers. There is no escape and no end to the war. Ritual abuse differs from traditionally described mind control in one key respect. It includes dissociation. Ex-POW’s know that they were tortured and brainwashed. Because of dissociation, adult survivors of ritual abuse do not. Dissociation is a central issue in recovery.’

Taken from ‘Safe Passage to Healing’ a guide for survivors of ritual abuse by: Chrystine Oksana


Hi, my name is Victorious Heart and I am so glad that you are viewing my site. I hope to educate people all over the world on ritual abuse and ritual abuse survivors. Ritual abuse is real. That's the first thing to understand, comprehend, and wrap your mind around. The perpetrators of ritual abuse look normal and are very skilled at deceiving others. They feel secure,  believing that they will never be found out or held accountable for their actions because they have spent years torturing and  terrorizing their children/ other victims into total and complete silence---counting on the fact that if their children/ other victims do speak out, that they will be met with disbelief.  A perpetrator of ritual abuse lives their entire life based on lies and secrecy, displaying one image to the outside world, while doing the unthinkable behind closed doors and in remote and secret locations. Ritual abuse is more common than most people think. It has been happening in parts of the world for centuries---and it is still happening today. It is important that society begins to understand that this kind of abuse is real, is happening today, and denying these facts because it is too difficult to hear will be the reason that these perpetrators continue to get away with their horrific crimes. Just like in the past with physical and sexual abuse of children, domestic violence and other such taboo crimes,  people tend to want to protect the reputation of the perpetrator of abuse---while thinking nothing of shunning or labeling the victim of abuse as crazy and a liar. Its so much easier to turn a blind eye and sweep the issue under the rug than it is to face what is actually taking place and do something about it. Some people feel that it is virtually impossible for the survivor of ritual abuse to come away from such a horrific upbringing completely sane and of sound mind. It is definitely possible---and I am proof of this fact. More and more survivors of ritual abuse are breaking free of the cult/ their families and seeking help to overcome the trauma that they have endured.

 I am just one of many ritual abuse survivors. You may already know and be friends with someone who survived ritual abuse---they just haven't told you about their history yet . I am fortunate. I survived the abuse just as many other cult survivors have, but many sadly have not survived the trauma and this is a tragedy. Even sadder still some survivors of ritual abuse are still unable to break away from the cult/ their families, or are drugged up in institutions, ended up in the sex industry, committed suicide, or have become perpetrators of abuse. I believe because of my determination to live in the truth, my inner strength and with God's help, I managed to rise above all of the horror that I experienced in my life---and instead chose the path of facing my past head on no matter how difficult, and I chose to seek  help through therapy.  I have survived a Multi-Generational Satanic Cult/MC (mind control)/ Masons. I left home at 16 yrs of age and began my healing process from all of the abuse. It has been a long and at times a treacherous process,  but one that was and has been extremely important and vital to my growth and healing. I have never been diagnosed with DID, nor do I have DID. (Dissociative Identity Disorder)  At 16  I was diagnosed with PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder), generalized anxiety, and chronic depression. Through years of hard work and self growth I have healed tremendously.  There are many ritual abuse survivors who are not DID or multiple (MPD) and there are many ritual abuse survivors who are. Everyone deals with trauma in unique ways as everyone has different strengths, coping skills, abilities to process external stimuli, etc. I  believe that it is by the grace of God that I never developed DID/ MPD. I am not sure why He spared me, but I am so thankful.

A lot of ritual abuse survivors have physical scars and permanent physical injuries. Its very common for ritual abuse survivors to have massive physical injuries to their back/spine, neck, (knees, shoulders. etc) and joint damage. It is also common for ritual abuse survivors to have scars from small metal rods, needles that are inserted in sensitive areas of the body, usually between digits, or joints such as in the knees, elbows etc. Perpetrators of ritual abuse (criminal behavior) use many techniques to torture the cult child/survivor and these torture techniques have been passed down from generation to generation. These scars really show up under fluorescent and black lighting. .

 I have both of these. I have many tiny pinhole (small round, circular) looking scars around all of my joints such as my wrists, elbows, shoulders, knees and ankles. I have also been diagnosed with "Facet Joint Syndrome" other wise known as degenerative joint disease and degenerative disk. This is caused by blunt trauma to the spine (usually a car accident) and the person can suffer for a short period or it can become chronic. My back problems started back under the age of 10 yrs old and I had never been in a car accident (as a child or adolescent), nor had anything physically normal happen to me that could have caused this injury. An old chiropractor told me that I had the physical injuries of a football player when I was 18-19 yrs old. The Canadian Back Institute diagnosed my back injury and determined that my injury is from many years of extreme physical abuse, and my condition is considered rare because of the cause. I have had chronic back pain since childhood. My scars and my back injuries are from some of the torture I endured in the cult.

My first book: "Unlocking Buried Secrets" is my story in chronological order of what I can remember of my life and the abuse. The back portion is set up as a small workbook for the survivor to write in. As well there is a list of ritual dates/ ritual calendar/ anniversary dates which will be updated in my second book. This book is 500 pgs.

My second book: "Unlocking Buried Secrets #2: Healing From Satanic Ritual Abuse Workbook for Male & Female Survivors"  is presently at the printers (Volumes Publishing) and is expected to be ready to purchase in 2012. This book is a spin off of the first. This book will be set up as an entire workbook with lots of information and writing exercises to help the survivor heal from the after effects of sexual and ritual abuse. *I have also included an entire section filled with the stories of other courageous ritual abuse survivors. I know this section will be very helpful. I have also added more of my story in with this book.  I want to promote my book to help survivors of sexual and ritual abuse. It is important to me to help others who have been affected by these kinds of devastating abuse and this is the way I have chosen to do it. I have used a pseudonym to protect my identity and ensure my privacy. My hope is that I can in some way make a difference and let the survivor know that he or she is definitely not alone. My wish is that this book will also help the survivors partner/ loved one learn how to better support the survivor as well as understand some of what the survivor is faced with in healing from sexual and ritual abuse.  Some of the topics that will be covered in my second book are:

-Building Survival Skills -Recognizing the Effects the Abuse Has Had On Your Life -Self Esteem -Getting in Touch with Your Inner Child -Feelings -Trust Issues -Healthy VS Unhealthy Relationships -Triggers -Programming -Dissociation -Memories -Confronting Your Abuser/ Cutting Ties with Your Family -Loss -Forgiveness  -Survivors Share Their Stories -For Supporters of Survivors.

Here is one of my favorite songs that speaks to just getting through your healing each and every day 

Kelly Clarkson --"Catch My Breath"    

My book is listed on many sites and a few of them are:

Helium-Where Knowledge Rules  (*I have written articles on this site plus have my website and book/s info listed)

Karen Stephenson's Suite 101 article on ritual abuse:

Karen Stephenson is a free lance writer for Suite 101 and she has written many articles on child abuse and abuse issues. The  link  above is her latest article on ritual abuse with the cover of my first book displayed in a photo as well as giving reference to both of my books.

Firewalker's Site: Link:

KWSASC:(KW Sexual Assault Support Center of Waterloo Region)

Hope for Survivors webpage:

You can follow me on Twitter:

S.M.A.R.T.-A Ritual Abuse Newsletter: (A support group for survivors of SRA as well as a news letter moderated and owned by Neil Brick) *You can email him to join the group or news letter at: SMARTNEWS@AOL.COM

 Please remember:

The abuse will forever affect you in some way throughout your life (less and less as you heal and deal with the trauma) BUT: You don't have to let it define you. You are so much more than how you were treated or what you were told about yourself. You have no reason to feel any shame or guilt. Often times survivors of abuse carry tremendous shame deep inside. Its important that you realize that you were an innocent child and a victim of the abuse. You didn't ask for any of it to take place. The shame belongs squarely on the shoulders of the perpetrator/s of abuse-- not on yours.

It is so very important to learn to walk in your  power, find your voice, believe in yourself and your capabilities, and be proud of who you are and all that you have overcome in your life.



I watched the Dr. Phil Show today which dealt with the 'Wessen Family Massacre'. A man who controlled, beat, terrorized, brainwashed and raped his children. He then went on to father children with some of his daughters/ other family members-- some of  which he later killed. He is serving time in prison for these crimes. I found that the show reminded me of the fact that I don't have to feel shame over my past and what was done to me as a child--and neither do any of you. Some people can be cruel and ignorant in life and further victimize you---the important thing to remember is that people like that are not healthy individuals and do not matter.  Most people will treat you with the dignity and respect that  you deserve and have compassion for you.  

If you click on the link below you will be able to read more about their story of abuse and view a short clip from some of the show. Its very inspiring.


Because the information on my site is very heavy to digest I want to include a couple songs throughout it to lighten things up. I happen to absolutely love Katy Perry and her song "Firework" is a great reminder in learning to appreciate and celebrate the fact that you are unique and beautiful in your own way. This is hard to remember at times so I hope this song reminds you of how special you truly are.



 Here is a wonderful video/ song by Wilson Phillips called 'Hold On'. I listen to this song when I need to remind myself of where I am trying to go in my life. Please listen if you are feeling down. This is a very beautiful and insightful song.


To listen to the 2009 SMART conference online:

 Neil Brick is the editor of S.M.A.R.T. – A Ritual Abuse Newsletter and a survivor of alleged Masonic Ritual Abuse and MK-ULTRA.

Press Release

Please list this announcement in your publication or home page or distribute it to sympathetic persons. Please let us know if you use it. Thanks.

For immediate release:

“The Twelfth Annual Ritual Abuse, Secretive Organizations and Mind Control Conference” will be held on August 14 -16, 2009 at the DoubleTree Hotel near Bradley International Airport (between Hartford, CT and Springfield, MA). The purpose of the conference will be to help survivors of ritual abuse and to help stop future occurrences of ritual abuse and mind control. The conference will be for survivors, co-survivors, helping professionals and others interested in the above topic. People have told us that last year’s conference was the safest conference they have ever been to. For the safety of all participants we try to exclude current members of secret organizations, current perpetrators, and/or members of unsympathetic organizations. We recommend always bringing a support person to all conferences and staying with that person or another safe person at all times. For survivors of mind control and/or ritual abuse, S.M.A.R.T. recommends that you try to bring a support person that is familiar with mind control techniques. We also recommend reading about conference safety and trigger management. For information write S.M.A.R.T., P. O Box 1295, Easthampton, MA 01027-1295 USA E-mail:, conference information is at:


Conference For Survivors Of Severe Child Abuse 2011:

A conference to help survivors of severe child abuse (ritual abuse) and torture will be held on August 5  - 7, 2011, between 8 - 5 PM Saturday and Sunday at the DoubleTree Hotel near Bradley International Airport, 16 Ella Grasso Turnpike, Windsor Locks, CT 06096 (between Hartford, CT and Springfield, MA).  This conference will help educate survivors of this abuse and their helpers.  Pre-registration is preferred.  For information write  S.M.A.R.T., P. O Box 1295, Easthampton, MA 01027-1295 E-mail:, conference information is at:
Ritual Abuse And Extreme Abuse Clinician’s Conference 2011 - A one day conference preceding our regular conference will be open to licensed practitioners in related fields to discuss issues in working with clients suffering from ritual abuse and extreme abuse symptoms.  Students studying in related fields and retired licensed practitioners may write by e-mail for more information. Internet conference information is available at: